oh i am still wondering on everything... can somebody tell me how is the right way to be alone? i think i was just not acceptable in any kind of relations.not matter how i tried, i still have the power to mess up evryone who be with me. i just wonder, why can't i make only frineds? am i too causl for those guys who walked by me? then why it do happens on gals? surely i am not a kind of attractive gal, but then why am i keep messing up relations between guys and gals? i just can't have a reason that convince me that what cause this messing.

after speaking such bull shit, i think i gonna pack up some of my life to show ppl here. i am a u student in a little hk u.(not HKU la) but life is just begins in the new school year and i am still trying hard to get rid of the loneliness that brought form being alone. hey, stop that rubbish plz bitch! so what i gonna say is i am a bisexual, and i am gonna be a webj for a web radio of a gay community in hk. that sounds a bit new and maybe a good try for me to break in some thing new to me.haha......

as a old friend of mine, who aren't my friend any more, said, stop being noise while i am the one who are looking for slience the most. i hate her so for she leave me with all she had understood me, i knew she got the same feelings as me on this event, at this moment. however, understanding eash others are still not enough for two person to be close. coz no matter how you understand a person, you can still make up things to drive her mad, sometimes, it may be more affective than a guys who not know her at all. and to me, that is the killing pt on this relationship. we know each other too much and both of us come to a point that we cannot accept the other to do anything that out of our mind. maybe it becoz we are already ruling over each other. may be we are just looking for escape. may be ... maybe...